--I told myself I wont miss you, but I remember what it feels like beside you.

Guess what? I lost the copy of what I was supposed to tell you, again. Haha, crappy crappy much. So hey, I hope your ayyt. Haha.

HOW SHOULD I START..
Yeah, last march.. I realized something about you, about what I feel for you. Remember when the world disappeared in my eyes and you were one of the people who helped me see it again? You were there to catch me when no one tried to. and in the end, I didn’t even try to give back all the care you gave but instead, I.. apparently, broke your heart. Sounds devastating but I didn’t really know what to do at that time, I wasn’t over him yet too, so yeah. My point is, you matter a lot to me. I enjoy every conversation, every little thing you do for me. our err, flirting days, haha. and all those fun stuff. and well, you are one of the most important person in my life coz of what you’ve done.. You’ve been such a big help, you somehow gave me the idea and chance to think about everything and just have faith, hope.. and im glad that you became a big part of ME. *woot~ cheesy much. X]
If I have to be honest, I like you.. I might actually think that maybe I do LOVE you, but hey.. Sometimes when I think about it.. I can’t picture myself in a relationship with someone who’s so dear to me. your that important to me, and I cant afford to lose you or.. lose what we have right now. I’m happy, cause we still talk to each other.. and im glad that things turned out this way, aren’t you? Love, I’m scared too.. What if I let myself fall into you that MUCH? It’ll be hard on my part, and.. I want you to enjoy your first year in college. Flirt with other girls, be in a relationship with someone who really deserves you, someone MUCH better than me, I guess. haha. College sounds great and I know you’re pretty much excited to meet girls and just.. haha. Yeah.. Words, cant really tell you how much I appreciate all the help and love, care you’ve given me.
I feel lucky to have someone like you. You just, genuinely make me happy and hyper. haha. Thanks for everything, for all the fun memories, I’m looking forward to our new and fun memories in the future, haha. can’t wait to finally go out and just have fun with you. :] Stay safe, and I hope.. You’ll.. reply or whatever. Haha. I miss ya, and.. well. Goodluck.

xoxo,
\\--affiane.is.a.vampire. :]