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What Goes Around... / ...Comes Around Interlude




Hey girl, is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you babe
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find...

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

Now girl, I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now
And maybe I should do the same
Funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you, babe
And now, it's all just a shame
And I guess I was wrong

Don't want to think about it
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fair?

Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
That's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that
What goes around comes around
Yeah
What goes around comes around
You should know that

Don't want to think about it (no)
Don't want to talk about it
I'm just so sick about it
Can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it
Feeling the blues about it (yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fair?

Is this the way things are going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Should've known better when you came around (should've known better that you were gonna make me cry)
That you were going to make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
'Cause I know that you're living a lie
But that's okay baby 'cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around
Comes all the way back around

[Comes Around interlude:]

Let me paint this picture for you, baby

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And every time you call him
All you get's a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes

You cheated girl
My heart bleeds girl
So it goes without saying that you left me feeling hurt
Just a classic case
A scenario
Tale as old as time
Girl you got what you deserved

And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right

But girl I ain't somebody with a lot of sympathy
You'll see

(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey
(What goes around comes back around)
I thought I told ya, hey

[laughs]
See?
You should've listened to me, baby
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Because
(What goes around comes back around)
[laughs]

+ right, my new fave song.. i haven't got a new post..
yeah.. phone's still broken.
just wanna share to you guys a quote i made..

~The war in my heart is finally over, Peace is finally within me.~

Ah! Yes, i have moved on.. From all those.. Nights pure of hell.
Night and Day of endless sorrow, well..
It's all.. gone now.
I am proud to say that, i really am happy for them..
and that hey look good together.
If you find this post.. plastic.
Good for you then, haha.


So anyway, im here in school.
Feelin a bit.. cold.
ABout how friendships are running right now..
I'm super pissed off. that i can nearly.. kick them or.. slap them. xD

God, what kind of a friend are they?
I want to defend her, i really want to.
That's why, right now.. i dont care what they say about me.
Na, nagbabait baitan ako.
Na.. epal ako or summfin.
Who cares if they get mad it me.
I am trying to do something good to a friend.
Thats it.
-Against all odds ule.
I mean, ang skit nun.
I can feel the pain if i was in her shoes.
I know how it feels.
and.. by that, At some point. I dont want her or any friend..
to feel it.
yeah, you cant help it. it really does happen..
But yeah, it can be avoided nmn.
Kaya im here to help her, to save her.
I will.
It makes me want to cry when i would try to think about this..
situation and the way it is.
It pains me a lot.. and that.. it makes me want to scream and cry.
She's a good friend, and she doesn't deserve this.
People change right? for the good, or for the bad.

But my point is, why do they still..
love doing this to her?
Wala bang.. consideration?
hayy. what the fuck's wrong wiv them!?! agggh.

i dont know, what im trying to say right now..
but yeah, TRUE friends.. are hard to find right now.

-Koi shiteru. Watashi no cupiecake..

yosh!! yosh!!
Its good to be back ya'll!!

anyway..
Im too stubborn to post e.

Here's a quessie.

"Does age really matter? i mean, what if the girl was like.. 1 month older
than teh guy? and well, the girl is starting to love this.. guy? is it.. wrong?"


-coz, it makes me that much stronger. makes my skin little bit
thicker, makes me that much wiser. So thanks for makin me.. a fighter.

~phanypycake.cupiecake~

:: Just So You know ::

Yarw. I love this song so much, it reminds me of someone.
Anyway, so.. I haven’t got a good post.. I’m too stubborn.
But yeah, I’ll try to post something.. nice. :)

Pledge

You fear
that all my vows
to love no one
but you,
may pass.

Or that
the sunshine
I had pledged to keep
for you
may fade
with falling rain;

That ere the sight
of you is gone,
your kiss
should freeze
upon my lips.

But most of all-
you too might fear
that should forever come at last,
then every joy must cease--
were two must part..

Take heart, dear one,
and be assured--
The day after forever,
shall find my vows renewed.


I got this poem from our English class, and yeah..
It also reminds me.. of.. my ex.
I do believe that promises are meant to be broken, as always.
Maybe for the fact, that we’re not perfect.
I’m not being emo again, but this is reality.
I mean, its okay to break some promises.. SOME.
But, if you know.. You can’t do it. Don’t say it.
Or might as well, if you can do it, do it.. don’t say it.
Don’t just say it. I mean, nothing lasts forever.. right?

But, if your.. old loved one. did come back for ya.. would you give that person a chance?

So here’s another.. uh.. quote. That I got from a friend.

*****
Why do we become so numb caring for people whom
at times dont even think of us a day or two?

Why do we let ourselves hurt and continue hoping
for a lot that makes us defenseless?

And why do we prioritize those people who only choose us
as options?

are this the reasons why sometimes in love, we end up losing ourselves?

Sad but true..

*pinch*
This is soo true, this really got me.
Why do we keep on hoping when we know it’ll just make us feel bad?
I mean, I’ve been through it.. and at some point.. I still care.
We become blind when we love..
Its like were under this spell that.. can’t even wake us up from the truth.
It sucks, it really does. Coz it makes us stupid..
But on the contrary,
Without it..
I guess, Life will be worthless.
We will never know how far we can go, how strong we are..
And how much love we can give.
Yeah, sometimes we lose in the end..
But hey, it makes us stronger and wiser, right?
It’s like, it has also something good to offer in the end..

So, yeah.. That’s about it..
I hafta go, coz I’ll be leaving at around 3.30an coz we’re
Gonna go to Bacao.

Toodles.

-Tell me, what you thinking about.. when you’re waiting so patiently.
Usually I don’t have to wait for nobody.

"Famous Last Words"
by My Chemical Romance

Now I know
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your...

And I know
There's nothing I could say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...

So many
Bright lights, they cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
Cause I'm out here
On the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I'm so weak
Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

(How can I see, I see you lying) 'Cause I see you lying next to me
(How can I see, I see you lying) With words I thought I'd never speak
(How can I see, I see you lying) Awake and unafraid
(How can I see, I see you lying) Asleep or dead

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home


~ Hapoo Valentines Day!! ~

woo, today was such an awesome day..
I really had a great time.
I received a lot from admirers, friends.
..and, yeah. It really means a lot to me.
To those who think, Im sarcastic, Heartless.
I just wanna say.. Thank you. A million thanks to all of you.

haha.
anyway, As far as i know.. I weren;t that cold or heartless today..
I gave everyone some chocolates.. and greeted them a Vday.
plus! matching REAL SMILES.
hahaha..
i really had fun!
I tried to make other people happy, and give them some lurve.
and, well.. I did. SUCCESS!

..so yeah.
Thanks a lot! (to everyone.)
and hope you all had a wonderful Vday.

Much love,
-disaster.

Pintura
by Kjwan

Sino’ng may alam
Kung saan ang daan
Patungo sa kanyang isipan
Sa isang halik niya lang
Ako ay pumupunta sa mundo
Na kanyang pininturahan
CHORUS

Sino ka ba
Ano ang ‘yong lihim
Papaano kita mapapa-ibig, mapapasa’kin

Lahat ng kulay niya
Sabay kumakanta
Tumatawag sa atin halina
Nauubos lahat Ng galit at sama
At ang mundo ay napupuno ng pag-asa
[Repeat CHORUS]

wwwoooo. yeah. Valentines day.. is coming..
i feel uber nervous.. i dont know why.
Oh well.. Come what may nlng bukas.
Ciao.

-Hapoo Valentines Day.

+ Let the music control my body. +

The Love Bug
by M-flo loves Emily

That's the way it's gotta be... Oh! She got, she got
kokoro no katachi... La la la love bug k
awaranai... So what, what you sayin' love?
No matter how things may be
kono mama fall... OK, OK, what more can I say?
Fall shitemo ii... Ooh wee!
nani mo... Saturday i
ranai... saranghae
Just tell me that you want me... Come on!

ashita ni nattara wasureru yo, toka itta noni
hikizuru kimochi for you, nazeka tomaranai
Kinda like an apple pie, soto wa DORAI dakedo nakami
Soft & sweet... doko kara start shiyou

? Once again it's the cosmic ARAMO-DO oishii from head to toe,
MAJI good to go... UH UH! All-out-all-day-all-night
Please believe it! yeah yeah
uso ja nai 800 call Rockwell, you a fly bijin!
you wanna ride with me?
Drop-top no 9(kyu)banme no kumo ni notte Take me there

** Tell me what you think of me... Oh! She got, she got
oshiete hoshii... La la la love bug
donna fashion? ...So, what, what you sayin' love?
donna MEIKU ga ii?
Wanna be your girl... OK, OK, whata more can I say?
Wanna be your one & only... Ooh wee!
nani mo... Saturday,
iranai... Just tell me that you want me...

Come on! Baby shake it like a BA-TEN, no taboo BABU-
amaeru specimen hashitte escape shiyou Just the TWO futari de of us...
got the KAGI hiraku Basement 30(sanjuu) Relaxation shimasu International ji
maku-tsuki Sharp like a hamono vamonos boogie Horoscope iranee
koko iriguchi for you & I sore ga manifesto... Let's go! keshou tears
de ochiru hodo kandou la vie musou suru kimi
sukoshi ijou yozora ni mau dress silk chiffon SANTORA-tsuki no LOVE STORY
stars for sure! For sure! gin no helmet baby kabutte seatbelt shite say it
Cuz some day, one day, you'll be mine...
And make love for the very first Time tonight..
. dare mo... kidzukanai... soshite Live the life... honto... yabakunai?
Under the spell... for real...
ichido talk shite Make you mine!
* repeat
doko sagashitemo no where to be found I'm alone,
do you know hitori no toki no feeling I got the bad case of interplanetary love jones!
Oh no doushite konna ni tsurai no baby?

She loves me... He loves me not;
OH! He loves me...
She loves me not...;OH!
She loves me... He loves me not...;
OH! He loves me... She loves me not... Oh,
He loves me..;loves me... loves me not Oh,
She loves me...;loves me...;loves me not
(yeah) M-F-L-O...;needs LOVE!

** repeat * repeat

Yeah. I think I have a new credo - - "Some things must end in order to allow something to start."Haha. Naks. I don't know. I just made that up. Ewan. I shouldn't be laughing right now. But I think everything. . . . every fight. . .every argument. . . every tear. . . strengthened me. That's why instead of just indulging in a full-time mournful moment, I am ever-so thankful na ganito na din. This is a lesson. Something I'll be really referring upon at the next time that I'll take part on these situations. Truly, L O V E is such a powerful word, thing, sentiment, whatever. It can kill you if you act stupid. . . . on the other hand, it can send you to the heights of utopia if you use both heart and hand. Love is a matter of actions - - that's one thing I've learned from him. Never waste time with words. SHOW it. Just SHOW it. And if things go wrong and there's no more understanding left, it's just better to let the feeling die. . . . There no use in holding on if one desires to let go.So many things. So many things I have learned. So many things, I'm still looking forward to learn. Trial and error. There's absolutely nothing wrong with trying and if failure parts in, move on. . . . Beautiful disaster ends it here.

What's.. happening to the world?
I cant believe it!
Is he really that.. uh, nvm. sigh.
Good luck to the both of them.

A Silent Creed

im worried sick of the few facts that loving me means taking a risk, i dont intend to hurt..but i do...i dont intend to make false beliefs of the endless horizon right there infornt of us when ur with me or not with me? damn it gives an endless possiblities for a new one to come, always easy to make a start but hard to end...end with what u really feel. understaning means hurting yourself...and being stupid enaugh to forget you understand..being human aint an excuse...hating the world for what its all about is an exhaust from the very risk you take when you feel your being haunted down by the very remains of the past..meeting a new someone..is like getting slapped on the face twice in a row and then smiling..then when all is over...we get to just sit down in the corner and eventually mubble about why we had to take a slap for free and not be angry about it..risking is a part of living and loving..the very true essence of the existing embraces of life and living in this world...we have to set walls and create decoys to fit in, yet be true to them in few angles that we exist, making others realize on the long run that true people really hide and not step forward and present that he is.the dragon in me...and the silent creed of pain and wreatched feelings of agony stays meek amidst attack yet...never minds what lies in front but looks afar to what lies ahead..many do not understand the facts, some pretend...others could careless...we may never figure out why,or how, or when..we could begin to understand, but for me the momment that we are hurt...thats the same time..we do...it..and if ur heart is in pain because of a loving..its also the same reason why your heart beats anyway to keep your breath lasting...

-Im sorry.

yeah, so.. I've been. Heartless. Cold. Dead.
i dont know why, but.. sometimes, people give me teh reason to be cold.
But, im not blaming them.
I can't..

anyway, Im smiling on teh outside..
but on teh inside, i guess.. my skin beneath is burning..
Dont ask me why.
Maybe its becaus of the whole new jiz thing.
Its.. affecting me.

HAHA. it does.
people think, im soo happy. and that i dont care what they think..
and that no one can stop me from being happy.
they dont know, that there's a big ache. left in my heart..

I really am sorry..
for being such and ass.
I hope.. that you'll forgive me.. and understand me.

Good day.

-So help me heal these wounds.

Torn-thinks.
ELABORATE
Let go.

i really need an answer. how do you say good bye to someone you've loved for such a long time? how would you let him go?someone whom you thought you'd spend the rest of your life with. someone who has loved you so much. someone who you gave your soul to, who wept with you, stayed with you during your darkest moments. someone who's always been there. who tolerated your idiosyncrasies, loved your crazy tendencies, held on to you during your foulest moods. someone who held your hand when you almost died in that dark hospital room. someone whose life revolves around you. someone who gave you the second chance. someone who'd do anything for you or you'll do anything for him. someone who cannot live without you, you cannot live without.how do you tell him you'll always care, but it's time to let go. Coz he wants to let you go.. how do you tell him that sometimes, love really isn't enough for you. that you want more. that you cant just let him go, its not that easy. how can you break someone's heart in the way that least hurts someone? is there such a way? is it possible?how can you diplomatically and with much grace accept that it's over. that you have to move on. how can her crush your dreams just like that? your dream of being with him? building a family with him?how do you really let go? because sooner or later it has to happen. .it is really dreadful. and it makes me so very sad. tell me, how can i say I let go?

Torn-thinks.
ELABORATE
Goodbye.

i really need an answer. how do you say good bye to someone you've loved for such a long time? someone whom you thought you'd spend the rest of your life with. someone you've grown up with, someone who has loved you so much. someone who gave his soul to you, who wept with you, stayed with you during your darkest moments. someone who's always been there. who tolerated your idiosyncrasies, loved your crazy tendencies, held on to you during your foulest moods. someone who held your hand when you almost died in that dark hospital room. someone whose life revolves around you. someone who gave you the second chance. someone who'd do anything for you. someone who cannot live without you.how do you tell him you'll always care, but it's time to let go. that you belong to a different world. that your dreams are far beyond what he can ever imagine, or even want for himself for that matter. how do you tell him that sometimes, love really isn't enough for you. that you want more.how can you break someone's heart in the way that least hurts him? is there such a way? is it possible?how can you diplomatically and with much grace tell someone it's over. that you've moved on. that you are fickle, and worldly and free. that you are incapable of sustaining something that's been fading for quite some time now.how do you tell him it's not his fault? that it's yours.how can you crush his dreams just like that? his dream of being with you? building a family with you?how do you really say goodbye? because sooner or later it has to happen. he deserves the privilege of a proper farewell, to old times and to dreams, and the future. he deserves to at least hear it in person.it is really dreadful. and it makes me so very sad. tell me, how can i say goodbye?

MAYDAY PARADE
"The Last Something That Meant Anything "

Got new friends, Got new life, Got heartaches, Got beaten, Got broken, Got hated, Got loved, Got sympathized, Got cursed, Got stucked, Got cheated, Got furious, Got screwed up, Got flamed, Got cold, Got uncherished, Got unsatisfied, Got angered, Got long hair, Got wiser, Got apathetic, Got out, Got hindered, Got revealed, Got gifts, Got a ring, Got jealous, Got enraged, Got no more to say. ;)