Posted on: Friday, November 03, 2006
Posted at: 2:49 PM
*sigh* its.. so hard to live..I can't bear this pain anymore..I dont know what to do..all my emotions.. are like..agh! I'm so sick and tired of this game.I wanna quit!
but how? how to quit?
Transfer school?
agh..
I dont know either.
I feel so plastic right now..
I tell them, "Yeah, ofcourse Im happy.. why wouldnt I?"
but deep inside.
Im.. Not okay.. I was never okay..
I lie to them. so that.. everything will turn out okay.
So that me too, can be happy. Even though.. I'm not.
Yeah, Im starting to move on and let go.
But there are some things that are like, holding me back.
or sometimes it makes things WORST.
are they really this NUMB?!
or.. DUMB?
haHa.. its a mystery for me.
I can see that people are gonna be happy without me.
Who needs me anyway?
haha.
im just a tiny speck in jasms. something that doesnt really matter.
royt? *sigh*
aggggh. evaporate EMO songs.
evaporate EMO mode.
waaaaaaaaa.
With all this problems.. with all this jake ISSSUES..
that im inhaling..
I want to exhale it.. ALL of IT.
and start something new.
a NEW me.
but yeah, with this pain.. in my heart right now.
It's not that.. It's impossible.. bcoz..
Im trying to exhale every piece of it but..
ugh. i dont know.. *sigh*
yan 2l0i.. im having thoughts that..
they wanted this to happen. = (
sBgay.. kse nga.. nagmomove on na c jak kaya..
nagninika na siya..
pero..
its like..
I feel sometimes na.. "ouch.. ang sama naman nila..
tawa pa sla.. ngiti ngiti pa.."
prang.. "oy oh! ang saya namen.. magksma na kme sa wakas!
nakakapagusap na kme sa wakas! freeeeeeee!"
to be honest..
It really hurts..
uber. parang sinasaksak yung puso ko.
pero.. yeah..
Sometimes, hinahayaan ko nalang.
Wala naman nga ako mapapala kung magwala ako..
ako nanaman talo.
malamang. haha. taz magagalit nanaman sla skin..
hay.. *furck tlg*
sobrang skit na tlg.. cant take it anymore.