~To speak or not to.. where to begin. this weird dilemma. I'm finding myself in.
But all i know you only see me as a friend. I try to tell myself wake up fool. this fairytale has to end~
yeah, i've come up with the idea.. to let him go. and MOVE ON.
haha.. its not easy. i can honestly say these are just freakin words.
but they're now coming into action. one by one.
If i used to live my life with no bf. why cant i live life without it now, ryt?
and besides. the answer lies in me.
If i want to be happy.. it's all up to me.
If i would try to get affected with issues. and me seeing them together.
who's day was or is ruined? MINE. right?
haha.. so i wont let that happen.
true, there are times where i wonder and just remember everything..
or when i see them soo happy together. cause finally.. he's trying his best.
to finally HAVE her. every single moment.. it makes me cry.
but. its funny.. i cant cry anymore.. all i have. is pain, anger. in my heart..
no teardrops. so maybe.. im getting use to this. or.. there are no TEARS left.
HAHA. oh well.. Life.. as we know it. Is really like this..
maybe i should learn on how to be single again.. and to love myself FIRST.
and to value and enjoy the company of my friends.
I've learned.. nothing is permanent in this world..
So.. i shouldn't let myself be left out and be in the same ground.
High School life only happens once.
They're right.. there are a lot of fishes in the pond. he's not the only guy in the world..
for heavens SAKE! he's not even worth crying. I guess i wasnt good enough for him.
haha.. okay then.. that's what he thinks.. that's what he wants.
I dont even care anymore.
I must say.. I Still love him. but.. you know.
i cant wait for him. it would be worthless and dissapointing.
well.. im gonna be ready to face.. MORE pain. MORE agony.
and i hope.. i can make it. i know i will.
Love feels good in the beginning... but yeah, they dont last.
You cant just love someone.. and give them your.. 100 percent.
leave some for yourself.
so that it would be easy for you to find ways to be happy even if he's gone.
oh well.. this is how love is.
You smile, bcoz of him.
You cry, bcoz of him..
yeah.. shitty ayt?
well.. he's not such a MAN after all.
di niya kaya harapin laht ng problems wiv me. so.. that makes him.
DUWAG? ay ewan.
bsta...
ako..
i'll try to find a plce.. where.. i can listen to my ipod. then draw.. compose.. sing.
its just.. ME.my Ipod.and the world.
thats what matters.
bye..