Posted on: Monday, October 23, 2006
Posted at: 1:45 AM
agh. and again.. memories keeps on haunting me.
I seem to remember again everything.
How i linger to be in his arms again..
but the world says.. "No.. Dont, things would get complicated."
and i dont want that to happen..
i mean.. i love him. and i.. maybe..
am. willing to wait..
but the question is..
Do I Have to Wait?.. and, Wait for what?
Moving on was never easy.. letting go was never easy too.
but yeah, sometimes.. they're the only thing. You think is right.
for the sake of your love.
I know i was a very terrible gf..
and im trying to learn on how to be a better one.
I dont wanna be selfish.
I feel like they love each other.. but they know they just cant.
cause of the fact that. they might hurt my feelings.
i mean..
yeah..
its too effin painful that it actually BURNS.
thats why..
Im planning to transfer school by next school yr..
So that they can live happily ever after.
With no worries.
So that they can love each other FREELY.
hay. i know it hurts..
but.. for the fact that i love them both.
and i want them to be happy..
i think.. i have to do this.
I needed to transfer school..
cause i know i cant bear the pain..
but, i want them to be happy..
I dont want to see them together. Neither hear their story.
but..
A girl has to do what she has to do.
So i wanted to transfer school.. so that i dont get to experience..
that much pain.
Hay..
oh well..
after 5 or 6 months.. i'll get over this. then give way. then.. leave. for good.
“If we lose something, we lose it for a reason. That reason might be hard to understand but whatever it is.. We just have to believe that God takes away when he has something better to give.”
i hope thats right.
+keep believing, that you'd love me.. until my heart stops beating.+