hm.. tragety? haHa. lol. i guess it's tragedy. not only tragedy. its.. misery.. torture..
and all teh morbid feelings..
oh well.. i ubeer miss jake.. haii.. we haven't talk that much. but.. its okay..
im use to it anyway.. but i still miss him.. (big time) hell yeah XD
errr.. i wanna buy a lot of stuff for teh past few days...
but i cant buy it.. im totally broke.. XD
haHa.. and i've never had this feeling that.. i wanna BUY a lot of girLie.. stuFfs..
EWW.. is this some kind of disease?! well if it is.. plz.. find a cure for this type of disease.
too draMatic ei?!.. haHa.. well iM excited f0r tOmorrow..
cOz finally.. may pas0k na.. weeeee... haHa.. there are some reas0ns to be haPpie agen. XD
there's this thing that keeps on buggin me for teh past few days..
i've been wonderin.. if.. me and jake will last forever..
i mean.. im scared.. i dont know if.. he'll cheat on me.
or.. i'll cheat on him. to be honest. i do TRUST him.
but.. i cant help it sometimes... as in.. to wonder...
about.. what will happen to us in teh mere future.
what problems we might encounter. im uber scared. =s
i hope i can survive. i hope i can do this.
tee. but... i'll always be loyal and FAITHFUL..
i dont wanna be a murderer.. nyaHa.. XP
and.. i uber love him..
i've never... been this.. serious in a relationship before.
(thats wat they all say...)
but honestly.. i will.. love him.. until my last breathe here on earth.
although.. he feels that i dont trust him..
taaww.. how would i be able to prove him dat i trust him?
soo hard. i hate myself. for being too.. selfish.. jelly.. possessive.
i uber suck.
haii.. hope one day..
i can.. overcome all this dark emotions.
hafta go now.
[ busy constructing my broken pieces of emptiness ]
toodles.
.why i wasnt meant for you.