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agh.. i feel so depress.
more than depress.
he broke up with me..
and i really wanna die ryt now..
bqt gnun.. umaasa prn aqu sknea??
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
bqt gnunn.. ayaw ko tlg sumuko.
mahal na mahal ko tlg sia.

eun lng tlg masasabi ko.
MAHAL MAHAL ko sia.
papatunayan ko eun.
bye.

agh. i wanna die. ITS HARD TO LOVE.
agh.. naiiyak na tlg ako.. every night.. i keep on crying..
hanggang pag gicing ko.. gus2 na nea mkipagbreak skn..
aggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

PUTA...

AYAW KO NA MABUHAY..

SAWANG SAWA NA AKO..

PURO SAKIT NALANG BINIBIGAY SAKIN...

AGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH








NAAWA KA PA SKN...
HAHA THANK YOU NALANG HA.

hai.. alis na ako. ayaw ko na..
maglalaslas nalang ako ule.

*sigh*
yeah.. i suck. i uber suck.
me and my silly jokes. haHa..
i've become.. a silly person.. i keep on.. teasing people. "binabara qu sLa"
pti b nMn sia.. nPikon sken?!.. wee. so dumb.
oh well..
hM. liFe as we know it.. is stiL suckish.
i uber miss him. but. he's not even taLking to me.
stupid meep.
haii.. i hafta go now. i'll have a life bukas.
shopping meep!

hm.. tragety? haHa. lol. i guess it's tragedy. not only tragedy. its.. misery.. torture..
and all teh morbid feelings..
oh well.. i ubeer miss jake.. haii.. we haven't talk that much. but.. its okay..
im use to it anyway.. but i still miss him.. (big time) hell yeah XD
errr.. i wanna buy a lot of stuff for teh past few days...
but i cant buy it.. im totally broke.. XD
haHa.. and i've never had this feeling that.. i wanna BUY a lot of girLie.. stuFfs..
EWW.. is this some kind of disease?! well if it is.. plz.. find a cure for this type of disease.
too draMatic ei?!.. haHa.. well iM excited f0r tOmorrow..
cOz finally.. may pas0k na.. weeeee... haHa.. there are some reas0ns to be haPpie agen. XD

there's this thing that keeps on buggin me for teh past few days..
i've been wonderin.. if.. me and jake will last forever..
i mean.. im scared.. i dont know if.. he'll cheat on me.
or.. i'll cheat on him. to be honest. i do TRUST him.
but.. i cant help it sometimes... as in.. to wonder...
about.. what will happen to us in teh mere future.
what problems we might encounter. im uber scared. =s
i hope i can survive. i hope i can do this.
tee. but... i'll always be loyal and FAITHFUL..
i dont wanna be a murderer.. nyaHa.. XP
and.. i uber love him..
i've never... been this.. serious in a relationship before.
(thats wat they all say...)
but honestly.. i will.. love him.. until my last breathe here on earth.
although.. he feels that i dont trust him..
taaww.. how would i be able to prove him dat i trust him?
soo hard. i hate myself. for being too.. selfish.. jelly.. possessive.
i uber suck.

haii.. hope one day..
i can.. overcome all this dark emotions.
hafta go now.

[ busy constructing my broken pieces of emptiness ]

toodles.
.why i wasnt meant for you.

taaw. life is uber suckish ryt now.
i miss school. i miss my friends. my jake.
haiii. today's teh start of our "health break".i call it torture.
but.. on teh other side of my world.. life is stiL worthwhiLe..
i think.. i've got good grades in my card. (i just think okay)
but im not honestly.. SATISFIED.. need to study..
and recite. and most of all.. my main problemo.. is to pass my projects on time.
too lazy to work. but i want nmn to have pressure in my studies. kso. tamad luhn tlg me.
too lazy to functi0n.
a l0t of teachers are like dissap0inted in me.. c0z they kn0w na.. matalino daw me..
di qu luhn daw tlg pinapakita. and.. my only prob is.. teh homework and projie.
di aqu nagpapasa. XD. gumagawa nga aqu.. kso.. nawawala.. and i have a memory gap.
haha. i tend to forget a lot of sturff.
nyaHaha..
but.. babawi tlg meep this 2nd quarter.. and be a good student nrn.
soo... there..
hMm.. lately.. i've been too horny and pervy.. nyaHa..
and lge na aqu nagpapatawa.. lge qu sla binabara..
teh funness.. XD
hekhek..
jizzie is a bit different now..
they keep on telling me.. they love mah fuckin ass.
they think im hot.
sexy.
ew.. teh world has gone mad.
waaaaaaaaaaaa...
a lot of people has been actin weird around meep ryt now.
darn.
but its uber fun.
yeyness.. oh teh joyness.

well then.. tiL hir nLan..
coz im in an internet shop.. we have no dsL.. no f0ne..
NO LIFE for short.
health break is gonna be uber suckish for me now.
bye then.
toodles.

.br0kenbLackth0rnes28.

Im uber b0red.. so.. me wanna sHare to ya s0me pix of.. HOT GUYS..


ooHh.. sweet.. kissable.. lips.. bad boi iMage.. sHane west.. HOTTIE..

weee.. brend0n urie.. PATD.. fuckin hot too.. eMo guys are so h0t..

now this is what i call YUMMIE.. my kind of guy.. ideaL guy.. fuck.. ya so hot.. *drools*

w0o.. channing tatUm.. sOo hOot tOo.. and aLso teh gurL..

f0rg0t his name.. but he's soo effing gorgeous..

speechless. drop.dead.gorgeous.

waaa.. orLando.. come to meep!


bwaHaha.. jake c0ncepci0n is aLso incLuded..
bwaHaha.. XD

_paghiLom

Someones Watching Over Me
by Hilary Duff

Found myself today
Oh I found myself and ran away
Something pulled me back
The voice of reason I forgot I had
All I know is just you're not here to say
What you always used to say
But it's written in the sky tonight

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even when it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
That someone's watching over
Someone's watching over
Someone's watching over me

Someone's watching over me

*sigh..*

everything is starting to be okay now..
my wounds.. my scars.. are finally.. heaLing..
iM starting to be ME again.. to feel teh air.. to feel love..
to finally breathe.. stiL.. there are w0unds tHat.. are stiL.. mending..
i know i can do this.. iM really having regrets..
iM ubeeer confuse ryt now.. its lyk.. haii.. nagbg0 na pagMamahL qu sknea..
pero.. di qu msbi.. haii.. but i'll be okay.. tHings wiLL be back to norMal again.. (i h0pe)
pretending your haPpie is soo hard.. whiLe deep inside ur bLeeding.. agh.. makes me weak..
oh weL.. tHats LIFE.. LOVE.. nyaHa.. fuckin triaLs..
iM startin to put teH brOken pieces back again.. back in my puzzLe..
kinda.. hard and c0nfusing th0ugh.. bUt iM trying my best to put it back..
if ya know wat i mean..
nika.. and I.. are starting.. to be cl0se friends again.. aLso a new start..
and iM sOo haPpie wit tHat.. yey!.. faustine's b0itdei!..
nyaHa.. atleast there's tHis part in my heart.. na iM uber eFfy! (haPpie)
c0z oF my friends.. and jake too.. they were always teh reas0n of my hAppiness..
haHa.. i talked to lei on teh f0ne.. and.. aLso.. carlee.. and with beH j0yce..
people whom i d0nt talk to on teh f0ne that much.. first time nga na..
makausap qu ule xLa.. (xcept for carlee)
hMm.. we didnt won in our sayawit.. sa 2nd yr aLa..
then.. we had our investiture last friday.. sOo suckish..
tHen this c0ming friday.. heaLth break.. untiL nx wednesday..
mmm.. my grades sucks.. i really need to study.. haiish..
oh weLL.. me hafta go now..

^i f0und myseLf tOdei.. oH i f0und myseLf and ran away..
bUt s0metHing puLLed me back.. vOice of reas0ns i f0rg0t.. i had..^
tOodLes.

_paghiLom

Over My Head by The Fray

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind



.such a nice song.... im l0sing it.. im too scared to love.. help me.. save me..

haii.. i have a very suckish life.. hm.. well.. i havent posted anything for teh past few days..
so uhm.. well.. jake and I.. are having.. a lot of "tampuhan" for teh past few days..
there was a time na he didnt even talk to me.. we would just pass by like normal people do..
it's like we d0nt kn0w each other.. haii.. and then.. we were having m0re of teh taMpuhan sessi0n..
and it ended.. hM.. nung wednesday.. (sayawit) haii.. and they're b0th Mc's.. haii.. my heart is too broken ryt now..
di na nea aqu pinapncin.. taz.. nagsesel0s pa aqu.. taz nagtatamp0 pa sia skn nung gsp prctice.. and m0st of all..
nung naLaman qu na may feelings pa pla sia kei nika.. haii.. i d0nt kn0w h0w t0 react on that one..
i mean.. gnwa qu lHat para kaLimutan yung besh qu na.. mHaL qu dti.. dhiL nga.. mhL qu si jake and loyal aqu..
taz.. mLLman qu rin pla na.. may feelings parin sia saknea..? OUCH.. aMpfufu.. PUTANG INA.. di qu alam qung pno pa ako
maBubuHai nean.. s0brang skt.. parang gus2 qung kuMuha ng kutsiLyo.. para saksakin sriLi qu.. AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH??
*aghhh* i feel so... miserable.. mas malaLa pa sa miserable.. sa depress.. sobra sobra tlg ang kLungqutan qu ngeun..
..it's like... i d0nt feel.. g0od anym0re.. and i wiL never wiL feel g0od.. EVER... naLilito na aqu.. di qu lam qng mahal ba nea tlg
ako.. i mean.. yeah.. 10 m0nths.. pero.. wanqu b.. im getting c0nfuse.. haii.. sa s0brang skt ng nararMdman qu.. sinugatan qu
nnMn sriLi qu.. then.. inuntog qu yung uLo qu sa pader sa kwarto.. pinagbabato qu yung mga unan.. nagsisisigaw aqu.. hbng
ngpapatugtog aqu ng r0ck s0ngs sa room.. hindi ko na kaya.. i d0nt kn0w if i c0uld xtiL face hiM.. grbe na.. tlg ang mga..
sugat skn.. i c0uld die in any minute now..

g0odbye.
_paghiLom