StellarlovesYOU,silly.
Ramona&Scott.

OdieisLOVE.
Zelle.
College, Nursing.
Musically Retarded.
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Stocks: I II III

Love is patient, Love is kind,
It does not envy, it does not boast,
It is not proud, It is not rude,
It is not self-seeking,
It is not easily angered,
It keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil,
but rejoices with the truth.

Love always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.

Love bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.

Love never ends.

L o v e N e v e r F a i l s.

Corinthians 13 : 4 - 8

Love is not possessive, if you like the moon, you
can't just take it down
and put it in your basin. But the moonlight still
shines upon you. In other
words, when you love a person, you can use
another method of possessing the
person. Let him become a permanent memory in
your life. If you really love
a person, you must love him for what he is. Love
him for his good points, and
the bad. You can't wish for him to become like
what you like him to be just
because you love him. If he can't change to
become what you like him to be,
you don't love him anymore.

When you really love a person, you cannot find
a reason why you love him, you only know that no
matter when and where,
good mood or bad mood, you will wish to have this
person be with you.

Real love is when two people can go through the
toughest problems without
asking for promises or listing criteria. In a
relationship, you have to put
in effort and give in at times, and not always be on
the receiving end.
Being away from each other is a type of test. If the
relationship isn't
strong, then you can only admit defeat..

Real love
will never become hate.

here's s0mething to uplift my spirit..

i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
i trust him.. i dont know y i fil jelly.. but i trust him..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
HE LOVES ME... I TRUST HIM..
im sorry if i fil jeLLy.. but i trust you baby..
im sorry if i fil jeLLy.. but i trust you baby..
im sorry if i fil jeLLy.. but i trust you baby..
im sorry if i fil jeLLy.. but i trust you baby..
im sorry if i fil jeLLy.. but i trust you baby..
im sorry if i fil jeLLy.. but i trust you baby..
im sorry if i fil jeLLy.. but i trust you baby..
im sorry if i fil jeLLy.. but i trust you baby..
im sorry if i fil jeLLy.. but i trust you baby..
im sorry if i fil jeLLy.. but i trust you baby..
im sorry if i fil jeLLy.. but i trust you baby..
im sorry if i fil jeLLy.. but i trust you baby..
im sorry if i fil jeLLy.. but i trust you baby..
im sorry if i fil jeLLy.. but i trust you baby..


there you go..
leave me alone ache.. FUCK YOU..
get out.. dont try to fiL my heart with blood..
LEAVE NOW! NOW I TELL YOU!!!!!
d0nt try to torture me.. FUCK YOU!!!!

The Only Way Is The Wrong Way
by Filter

Did you think that i would dissappear?
Did you think that I would wash away?
Did you think that I would last this long?
Did you think that I would get this strong?
Everytime they try to make me change
They just wear me down with more chains

Chorus:
and it feels like that you're with me or against me
and it feels like that your promises are all mess
and it feels like that to push me is to shove me
and it feels like that the only way is the wrong way

Did you think that I could be your crutch?
Did you think that life could mean so much?
Did you think that this could end in bust?
Did you think that this is plain old lust?

Everytime they tried to make me change
They just wear me down with more chains

Chorus

And it feels like the only way is the wrong way
And it feels like the only way is the wrong way
The only way is the wrong way
You always push me down

..there's this ache again in my heart...
but.. i'll try to let this ache go now..
let it fade.. leave me pain.. i cant bear you anymore..
go away.. i dont need you ache..

:: teehee.. watta day.. s0 far.. i g0t my test resuLts.. and i didnt FLUNK!!..
yeah.. but i wasnt that satisfied.. jizzie poppet needs to strive more..
s0o.. uhm.. i've been reding this really h0t b0ok.. entitled.. "suMmer sisters"
by jude bluMe.. wee... such a h0t and nice b0ok.. hm..
i als0 n0ticed that i keep on speakin in english for teh past few days..
darn it.. i wonder WHY.. and people would always mimic me..
on how i say teh words.. maybe they would think.. "ang arte nmn ni2"
yea yea.. hm.. well i've always been happie and sleepy for teh past few days..
meep uber kulit.. "lgi aqu nanghahampas ng tao"..
and well.. at sch0ol.. s0metimes i w0uld wear my readin glasses..
and people would tel me.. that i look like a different person...
they said that i look pretty with teh glasses on..
mickey even called me HOT.. g0sh.. i didnt xpect that..
and they keep on callin me sexy.. and. ew.. HOT ASS MAMA?!
EWWW.. so suckish ryt?!
err.. s0o.. uh.. todei.. we had our essay writing c0ntest..
yey.. i was wid jake 1pm-3:30pm..
they said that my essay was like a bigrpahy c0z it was l0ng..
teehee..
tehn after that we had our taLumpati...
i was c0ntestant # 8 and jake was c0ntestant #7..
weeee...
i was talkin to jake teh whole dei...
teehee..
sooo fun.. then.. well..
hm.. when it was my turn... carla and patti hugged me and enc0urged me that i can do it..
soo there.. i didnt flunk.. yeah.. alth0ugh i had no hand expressions..
harhar..
then.. tehre were a l0t of time for bugging.. teasing.. bugging... then teasing..
oh alm0st f0rg0t.. Miss daniLyn said that.. i'll dance teh maria clara with eMan..
haha... we are teh representatives so.. we have an intermission nuMberr.. grrr..
suckish ayt??..
so dats it..
toodLes..

:: is it stiL me that makes u sweat? aM i who u think b0ut in bed??

xoxo,
.punkrockemo28.

taaw.. finally im g0nna p0st s0mething g0od again.. i've been lazy
f0r teh past few days.. so.. uhm.. just g0t h0me.. school was okay..
me really happy.. c0z my baby jake was really h0nest to me..
and i really appreciate it.. jake being honest to me is one of the most..
ineffable feeling.. and also when he feels jelly..
it's like.. i kn0w he l0ves me.. but when he feels jelly..
it's like the feeling gets str0nger.. its lyk he cares for me soo much..
and he loves me ohh soo much..
hay.. im UBER happy.. l0ving jake.. i mean.. having jake.. is one of teh m0st precious gift
God has given me.. i wish he'll be my first and the last..
i really love him.. words aren't en0ugh.. but i'll do my best.. to prove that..
im never gonna leave him and he matters to me.. soo much..
i didn't really expect that he would go jelly to my beshie eman..
haHa.. well.. jake is my ONE and ONLY and thats 4ever..
iM loyal to him.. and im faithful..
im never gonna replace him to eMan.. alth0ugh he thinks that.. i like eman..
bla bla.. i mean.. yeah eMan's cute and all that.. but i d0nt you kn0w.. like him..
c0z i kn0w i have a b0yfren.. and.. well.. i may have a crush on some guys..
but they're not really true.. im just playing around..
i d0nt want people to link me on other guys..
that sucks.
hay.. soo far.. my grades in the periodical exam are not so bad..
haHa.. i didnt fail.. but they're not en0ugh..
i want MORE.. haHa.. so this 2nd grading.. i'll do my VERY best..
and outshine..
haish.. sayawit is giving me a big headache..
our gr0up is sooo hard to handle..
people are lazy.. it's lyk they're not interested..
and they are such a big PAIN in teh ass..
soooo.. kulit tlg..
thats why we cant finish a thing..
coz all we ever do is.. get mad.. walk out..
haish.. i h0pe my gr0up will c0operate.. c0z winning is iMportant to me..
nyaHa.. or atleast teh eff0rt.. but i d0nt want teh 3rd yr peepz to win..
i d0nt want teh 3rd yr pipz invading all the 1st place..
haHa.. and im s0o scared f0r teh talumpati.. me gettin nervous..
i didnt expect nika w0uld j0in.. grr.. hai.. i guess.. im never g0nna win..
or even be a finalist.. that sucks..
as long as she's around.. she's always teh #1..
oh well.. that's lyf.. i'll just try my best..
well.. thats it f0r n0w.. toodles.. ja..
.punkrockemo28.

^i c0uld never be with0ut y0u...^

wait for the boy

who would do

A N Y T H I N G

to be your

E V E R Y T H I N G


SOMETIMESz the person
youu want; is the person
youu`re better off witout


BEING HAPPY

doesn`t mean that

everything is perfect

it just means youu`ve

decided to look beyond

the IMPERFECTIONS.


©--where ever you go--©
||~> i will be waiting <~||

boy.you.got.me.doing.
.things.that.i.would.never.do.
©©©

L.O.V.E
never.knew.what.i.was.missing.

is she the reason
you::dont::call::like::you::used::to


i'll be the rock that will be
|| s t r o n g || f o r || y o u ||

-okay that one is pretty cute i guess.-
take.back.everything.you.ever.said.
|©| you never meant a word of it |©|


Hollywoodahills
&& suburbanathrills

©--youakissedamealikeaanaoveradramaticaactor.
starving for work.--©


{©} For.you.i.will {©}


We'reaonatheatopaofatheaworld
You && I
We've got a lot of time
But it sure feels ©right©

Please just dont play with me
My Paper heart will BLEED--©


You're the brightest shining star I've ever seen <3

{©} Oh how blessed we are
To share in everything {©}

Everytime I see your face I'm reminded
[[of what it means to be alive]]
©©©

©--This may never start
We may fall apart
--©a&anotabeayouramemorya©--


I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see
the changes that I've made

I've got some imperfections
But how can youn collect them all
&&. throw them in my face

xo1. && you leaned in and asked me
if you could take me anywhere,
where would it be? If I recall..
I wrapped your arms around me
and whispered, "right here"

xo2. "Can't believe I've lived this long without having your love," she whispered weakly.
"You've had it. I've always loved you," he said quietly, threading his fingers through her hair to press her head against his heart, "I just didn't know your name."

xo3. && maybe it is true
maybe..we don`t know what
we have until we've lost it
But maybe it's also true that
we don`t know what were missing
until we find it

xo4. Remember, when I told you what
girls want? Girls really just want
somebody to love them back
-- One Tree Hill

xo5. and even though the photograph of me and you
doesn't go with the way things are now, i still wish
i was back in that picture with you, in your arms.

xo6. Sometimes I catch myself wondering where you are,
and how you're doing;; I don't think
I'm ever going to let you go completely.

xo7. but when you hold me
it's so real
i'm feeling things for you i can't feel
i know i shouldn`t stay
but i just can`t leave ..

xo8.He’s gorgeous.
He’s perfect.
The shine that reflects off
of his face is dazzling.
I want to get lost
in this moment forever.

xo9. && he left a rose in her locker
with a note saying i love you
just so he could see her smile

xo1. I get to make my own decisions. Have my own life. Do whatever I choose. & here`s the good part, so you listen close. What I choose is you . You`re what I want to wake up with, & go to bed with, & do everything in between with <3
--Denny on Grey`s Anatomy*

xo4. she went dancing in the rain.
letting go of all her regret, fear, & pain.
now all she thinks about is how she
can keep feeling this way forever.

xo5. My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind..

xo6. we can lay in the street together
dance when theres no music
lay at a park && watch the clouds go by,
just sit together looking into each other`s eyes
that`s what i might call perfect

xo7. When was it that we fell in love? I don't know, cause the truth is, I can't picture a time when I wasn't in love with you. I always knew you were the one that could look into my eyes & see my soul. I don't question your commitment to us. & I know there's nothing we can't work through. & I accept you, as my boyfriend & as my best friend above all others. It's a miracle to find the kind of peace & happiness that you've given me.

xo8. the future lies before you
like paths of pure white snow;
be careful how you treat it -
for every step will show

xo9. This is why you should never, ever get your hopes up. This is why you should see the glass as half empty. So when the whole thing spills, you aren't as devastated.

xo10. Hold me close, & don't let go
I love you & I want you to know
I wanna be with you forever, from this day
I love you in every possible way.


xo1. The weak are cruel, the strong have no need to be

xo2. make up your mind before you go and mess with mine <3

xo4. Everyone wants life to run smoothly,
but it's the mistakes that make life interesting..

xo1. You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.

xo2. It may be over but it won`t stop there,
I am here for you if you`d only care <|3

xo3. Imperfection is beauty. Madness is genius. And it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring. And when it comes down to it, I let them think what they want. If they care enough to bother with what I do, then I'm already better than them.
- marilyn monroe

xo4. tell me that it`s fate
driving me insane
tell me it's the real thing

xo5. & i feel just like i`m living someone else`s life
it`s like i just stepped outside;
when everything was goin` right

xo6. & remember in those cute old films,
the guy takes his girl in his a r m s & kisses her;;
well, what ever happened to those R0MANTiC guys?



* w e ' r e s o y o u n g -
lets abuse it all & have a little fun
i'll drink to that - let's drink to that

* One of the toughest decisions is
deciding when to give up or try harder

* i laugh at all the wrong times
you hardley laugh at all;
come on kidd just
-go with the flow-

* because your the kind of guy who'd laugh at me
when i fall help me up && then whisper
"it's okay cause i love you"

* so heres to the future
because im over my past

* Because for me, it's always been you.
Always. And I've tried to fight it,
I've tried to deny it, but I can't.
You're undeniable.
--The OC

*Guys : if you like a girl,
dont play it the old way
and act like you hate her.
because if she likes you back,
you'll only break her heart.

* its the kind of friendship
where I can call you ugly
and you can call me fat while we
sit there and laugh our butts off

* before i met you, i never knew what
it was like to be able to look at someone
&& smile ...for no reason
* i wanna hold hands & watse friday
nights with you <3
-- Abercrombie&Fitch

* pictures show the meaning of what things
were once like.
* life doesn't hurt untill you think about
how much things have changed
who you've lost along the way
and about how much was [ your fault ]

* no camera could capture the glazed look in her
eyes and the feeling in her heart,
when she looks at him.]

* Best friends are people who make your problems
their problems - Just so you don't have to go threw
them alone. <3

* It`s hard to grow up in a society
where you will never be the
pretty girl.. everyone seems to
have everything you don`t..&
dreams are always one cloud
away from where you are
* Someday || someone || is going to walk into your life
& make you (r|e|a|l|i|z|e) why it never worked out with
- - - - - - - » a n y o n e e l s e « - - - - -

once you get everything straightened out & you
begin to enjoy life.. something happens
it happens because there has to be some kind of
event that hits you in the face and makes
you realize its not all gonna come easy..
you have to work at love & dry your tears..
friends will come and go.. and guess what..
there will be others
not every relationship will be enchanting &
perfect.. and if its meant to be..
it will always find a way..

She smiles in the day
And cries at night
Her fears are near
And nothings right
No one knows
What will happen
When the door is closed tonight


behind my smile is a hurting heart. behind my laugh,,i'm falling apart. look closely at me and you will see:::the girl i am isn't really me.

you know whats sad-->
how much you hurt her
&& how much she pretends
N.O.T T.O C.A.R.E


i always keep bumping into you ;
everywhere i go i find you.
why? maybe this could be fate's
way of bringing us together or
maybe fate's just rubbing the fact
that i can't have you in my face.

everyone tells her it's not her fault .. but she can't help but to
blame herself // she's just gone through so much in her
life, that everything that has went wrong has always
somehow seemed to be her fault ..


she's the type of girl that can be so hurt -- but
can still look at you and smile;; the type of girl
who is willing to brighten your day -- even if
she cant manage to brighten her own <3

you see her in the hallways,

laughing and smiling with all her friends.

she seem so happy, but she's so good at pretending -

you'd never guess she cried herself to sleep the night before


&& she's just a stupid little

girl with her hopes too high

&& feelings much too strong

especially for a boy like him.

Maybe cupid should shoot
himself with his own damn arrow
just so he can see how much love hurts.

---> haHa.. tOo many qu0tes ei?.
well lu yah guys.. take care..

xoxo,
_.can u see me falling apart?

[mOre pOn and Zi]


aw.. faLLin f0r y0u.. = ]



i wish you wouLd love me..



taaw.. tey look adorable!! sOo kawaii!



weeee.. an0ther cute pix..



yes.. the sw0rd c0mes oUt afteh you swallow it.. = [



st0p l0okin at me you.. idi0t.. [taww.. bad nmn nean..]



why did you eat teh c0okie?.. y0u must be vewi hungry..



you d0nt look like a ninja dear... and it d0esnt fit you..



taaww.. deeply faLLin inLove with you.. [with jake]



yehp! tHat's ryt.. guMmi bears are sOo kind.. nyaHa..

:: d0nt they all l0ok l0vely??.. i reaLi l0ve pon and zi..
hm.. i mish my jake.. i h0pe he's okay..
well..

_iF i lay here.. iF i just lay here.. wouLd you lay with me and juSt l0ok at teh w0rld?..

xoxo,
_punk.rock.emo28

[1]

Oh when I don’t know
I don’t know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

--Kelly Clarkson - Beautiful Disaster

[2]

If ever you wondered if you touched my soul
yes you do since I met you I'm not the same
You bring life to everything I do
Just the way you say hello
With one touch I can't let go
Never thought I'd fall in love with you...

--Keith Martin - Because of You

[3]

When I first met you
I wanted to give you the best of me
something special
I gave u my trust & Honesty
And to stay fateful until the day I die
Then u gave me your love
I told u your the only one,that I really trust
I gave u all my love

--Keith Sweat - I Love You

[4]

I would give up everything
Before I'd separate myself from you
After so much suffering
I've finally found a man that's true
I was all by myself for the longest time
So cold inside
And the hurt from the heart it would not subside
I felt like dying
Until you saved my life

--98 Degrees - Thank God I Found You

[5]

Love wandered inside
Stronger than you
Stronger than I
And now that it has begun
We cannot turn back
We can only turn into one

-- Mariah Carey&Brian Mcknight - Whenever You Call

[6]

You can call me selfish
but I'll never have enough of your love
you can call me hopeless
hopelessly in love
you can call me imperfect
but who's perfect?
tell me what do I gotta do
to prove that I'm the only one for you

--Nsync - Selfish

[7]

I'm never speaking up again
it only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery than she desert me
oh, I'm never speaking up again
starting now

--John Mayer - My Stupid Mouth

[8]

Anything you want, anything you need,
anything your heart desires
I'm here for you, You take me higher
What you feel what you say, what you do
when you smile, my days are brighter
I'm loving you

-- ?

[9]

I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh? How does he cry?
What's the color of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he? Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is gonna take me so high?

--Natalie - Where Are You?



[10]

Cause your eyes are the windows to heaven,
Your smile could heal a million souls.
Your love completes my existence.
Your the other half that Makes Me Whole.

--Amel Larrieux - Make Me Whole

[11]

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

--Howie Day - Collide

[12]

Would have given up my life for you
Guess it’s true what they say about love,
it’s blind. Girl, you lied straight to my face
lookin in my eyes And I believed you
‘cause I loved you more than life
And all you had to do was apologize

--Justin Timberlake - Never Again

[13]

I was lost and you were found you
seemed to stand on solid ground
I was blind but oh how you can see
you saw the beauty in everything,
everything in me. Sweet misery calls me.
That’s what he calls me.

--Michelle Branch - Sweet Misery

[14]

Let me be the one to break it up
so we don’t have to make excuses
so we don’t need to find a setup where
someone wins and someone loses
we just have to say our love was true
but has now become a lie so I’m telling you
I love you one last time,
and goodbye...

--Jimmy Bondoc - Let Me Be The One

[15]

I aint ever had nobody show me
all the things that you done show me
in a special way I feel when you hold me
we gonna always be together baby
that’s what you told me and I believe it
cause I aint ever had nobody do me
like you

--Ciara & Bow Wow - Like You

[16]

your love is a one in a million,
it goes on and on and on
you give me a really good feeling,
all day long

--Aaliyah - One In A Million

[17]

I'm weak, it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
i'ts time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

--Ryan Cabrera - True

[18]

And I want to know what makes your world
go round And I want to hear your voice
for the sound. A love that defines
all I've had in mind. Now I'm holding back
nothing for the look in your eyes

--Ryan Tedder - The Look

[19]

would have given you all of my heart
But there's someone who's torn it apart
And he's taken just all that I have
But if you want I'll try to love again
Baby, I'll try to love again but I know
the first cut is the deepest

--Sheryl Crow - The First Cut is the Deepest



[20]

There's always something
in the way
always something
getting through
but it's not me
it's You

--Switchfoot - You

[21]

Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you

--Mandy Moore

[22]

Through you I live and love again
Open the path to happiness
Through you I learn to smile again
I thank God for you
Through you I live and love again
I trust you just guide me take my hand
Through you I learn to smile again
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you

[23]

And I know that he won't break my heart
And I know that we won't never part
It's time; time for us to settle down
And I wanna be with him forever

--Ciara - And I

[24]

When the eagles forget how to fly
When it's twenty below in July
And when violets turn red
And roses turn blue
I'll still be in love with you

--Brian Mcknight - Still In Love With You

[25]

My shattered dreams and broken heart
Are mending on the shelf
I saw you holding hands,
standing close to someone else
Now i sit all alone wishing
all my feeling was gone
I gave my best to you, nothing for me to do
But have one last cry

--Brian Mcknight - My Last Cry

aw.. "My heart is beating f0r y0u"
p0or heart..



i have a heart.. and well.. it is sMiLing.. ^______________^



cUte bunny!.. and yet.. he l0oks h0peless.. and.. l0st??



l0okin f0r s0me0ne t0 hug.. p0or p0or creature.. = [



jakie!.. iF i put my lips like tHat i want yOu tO kiss me baby.. aHihih.. = p



awww.. weee!! kawaii!



sOo swit.. cUte cUte jake and jiz.. ai este p0n and zi..

tHat's b0ut it..
b0red me e..

xoxo,
_punk.rock.emo28

YEY!!!!exaMs are finaLLy over!!
bUt tHen.. i xtiL have a l0t of tHings tO dO..
GRRR!!!hmm.. f0r the past few days..
i've been feeLing.. aMorous.. and.. exhausted..
TIRED.. at the saMe tiMe.. haHa.. i'M always sLeepy..
*sigh* bUt.. i've stUdied weLL.. (i guess..)
i sUck in math.. sOo.. i bet i'll be getting a LOW grade.. haHa..
err.. iM reaLLy uBer tiRed tOdei..
c0z we practiced f0r oUr sayawit..
it was really HOT.. kya eun..
hAi.. well.. i g0tta g0 n0w..
i need to edit s0me s0ngs e.. haHa..
tOodLes..

xoxo,
.punk_rock_emo28

_.d0n't let n0b0dy teL y0u tHat ur liFe is over.. be every coLor tHat y0u are._

..well... everything is starting to be okay again.. iM so happie.. *dancing ar0und*
watta j0y.. *stripping* BWAHAHA.. [h0rni me..]
he does l0ve me.. bUt i reali can't st0p feeLin jeLLy.. it's a part of being ME..
bUt iM trying my best to.. change.. it may n0t be n0w.. bUt iM trying to learn..
step by step.. one by one..

btw.. 3p qu magrate ngeun.. s0.. rate qu mga t0p 5 na waFu guys sa 2nd Yr. Perseus

1. eMan Garcia
2. Vincent Abella
3. JuLian Gonzales
4. Christopher Leyva
5. Kevin Ibarra

GirLs..

1. Nika cLiMacosa
2. Faustine Casabar
3. Miggs cLimacosa
4. Ana Peregrina
5. Kristine Jaro

3rd Year Aquila

1. Jake Concepcion
2. Clinton Angga
3. Lorenz Cabanos
4. Lian Co
5. Mickey Banzon [h0tness]

Girls..

1. Ana Cuajao
2. Meg..
3. Carla Hutchinson
4. Patty Marcaida

tHat's b0ut it.. g0t n0thin t0 d0 e.. nyeHehe..

+ cHeMicaLs react +
by: Aly & A.J

you make me feel out of my element
like i'm walkin' on broken glass
like my worlds spinnin' in slow motion
and you're movin' too fast

(chorus)
were you right, was i wrong
were you weak, was i strong, yeah
both of us broken
caught in the moment
we lived and we loved
and we hurt and we joked, yeah
but the planets all aligned
when you looked into my eyes
and just like that
the chemicals react
the chemicals react

you make me feel out of my element
like i'm drifting out to the sea
like the tides pullin' me in deeper
makin' it harder to breathe

we cannot deny, how we feel inside
we cannot deny

(chorus)
were you right, was i wrong
were you weak, was i strong, yeah
both of us broken
caught in the moment
we lived and we loved
and we hurt and we joked, yeah
but the planets all aligned
when you looked into my eyes
and just like that
the chemicals react
the chemicals react

kaleidoscope of colors
turning hopes on fire, sun is burning
shining down on both of us
don’t let us lose it (don’t let us lose it...)

(chorus)
were you right, was i wrong
were you weak, was i strong, yeah
both of us broken
caught in the moment
we lived and we loved
and we hurt and we joked, yeah

we lived
we loved
we hurt
we joked
we're right
we're wrong
we're weak
we're strong
we lived to love

but the planets all aligned
when you looked into my eyes
and just like that
watch the chemicals react
and just like that
the chemicals react
(the chemicals react)

[ Listen to y0ur heart.. wHen he's caLLing f0r y0u.. bef0re y0u teL hiM g0odbye ]

.: i w0ke up at ar0und.. 8:30am.. nd started crying again.. bef0re i went t0 bed.. i was crying..
nd when i w0ke up.. haha.. i was stiL crying.. my heart was.. giving up.. actuali.. I WAS.. ab0ut t0 give up..
bUt tHen.. i t0ok my ip0d.. nd i listened t0 the s0ng "haLo".. and "cheMicals react"..
i started feeLin a bit okay.. i tried texting my friends..to ask f0r help..
tHen suddenly.. s0mething w0ke or.. s0me0ne w0ke my mind..
nd i started.. thinking.. tHat i sh0uld n0t give up.. let's say.. he/she.. enc0uraged me..
never t0 give up.. if i reaLLy l0ve hiM.. then i sh0uld fight my l0ve f0r hiM..
i sh0uld h0ld on.. if i reaLi l0ve him.. then giving up is n0t the s0luti0n..
s0o.. i was l0oking f0r my letter b0x.. where all his letters were t0gether..
tHen i read his last letter.. [our 9th m0nthsari] my fave line that gave me much strength was..
"hey.. baby.. dont leave me ah.. i'm getting scared.. i might lose you.. and i cant take that much
pressure.. i love you.. yaan mo po.. la ka dpt intindihin skin.. di ako mwawala.. d2 lng ako..(n0se t0 n0se)"
it enlightened me.. nd i started gaining h0pe.. and faith.. these are trials.. on h0w much my heart can take..
and iM glad.. that my prayers.. are s0meh0w.. being answered one by one..
i l0ve y0uGOD.. thank y0u..
i l0ve jake s0o0o much.. and i cant aff0rd to lose hiM..
he means s0o much to me.. and no one.. can ever.. break us apart...
uh..
i didn't do anythin t0dei.. i tried.. being happie.. haha.. lol..
i tried.. to f0rget.. my pr0blem..
but it just keeps on haunting me..
g0od thing i didn't cry..
c0z if i did.. i'd reali be uber WEAK..
c0z nung thursday night.. up to saturday night..
all i did was.. CRY.. CRY.. ano MORE CRY..
hekhek..
cry baby cry..
atleast.. iM starting to be okay now..
well.. i g0tta g0 n0w..
t0odles.

_we.cann0t.deny.what.we.fiL.inside.

this is the part where i get c0nfuse.. hm.. i've been talkin to s0me pip0l and.. i've heard a l0t of news b0ut jakie and carla.. hay.. i've been thinkin.. is it true that jake is attracted to carla?.. i can't just jump to conclusi0ns.. c0z that w0uld be bad.. i d0nt wanna have d0ubts.. c0z that's als0 bad.. i wish.. i knew the answers.. i'll try to ask jake b0ut it and i h0pe he'll be h0nest.. guys.. y0u kn0w why this thing keeps on bugging me?.. c0z im afraid to lose jake.. im n0t reali g0od at fighting to what my heart says.. so.. im scared of losing him.. in the end of the day.. i w0uld always think.. hm.. d0 i feel that he really d0es l0ve me?.. or am i just over reacting? c0uld be. i've suddenly c0me up with an idea.. that w0rds aren't really en0ugh.. it's wat y0u d0 that matters.. n0t wat y0u say.. "acti0n speaks l0uder than w0rds" i need him to pr0ve that he's l0yal to me.. and he d0esnt have a crush on carla.. i mean.. okay.. let's just say it's ok to crush on s0me0ne.. but.. the painful part to me was. jake is the one who keeps on f0ll0wing her just like the others.. g0sh.. im over reacting again.. i d0nt think this is g0od.. i guess wat i fil ryt n0w is bad.. maybe it's n0t jake's fault.. maybe it's my fault c0z im over reacting.. well.. im lyk this c0z it's lyk.. i d0nt fiL jake l0ves me anym0re.. i d0nt kn0w why.. but its lyk.. yeah.. he's ryt there.. hoLding my hands and stuff.. but why can't i feel that he l0ves me?.. is it fading away?!.. is this the end? haish.. i made a c0mmitment that im wiLLing to bleed f0r jake.. i've als0 made a fulfillment that i f0und wat i need in him.. and im satisfied.. i'll do anything just to pr0ve him that i CARE b0ut him so much.. that im n0t having d0ubts.. it's just that im afraid of losing him.. im c0ncern that one day he might find s0meone new.. and im n0t ready f0r that at the m0ment.. c0z ryt n0w.. my heart is really open f0r him.. that my heart is really wanting him and needing him.. that i LOVE him with all that i'am.. s0metimes.. im scared na.. if they w0uld g0 0ut.. [the 3rd yr guys..] t0gether with carla.. and if ever jake w0uld c0me.. iM scared that they w0uld get cl0se bc0z 0f that.. they wiLL have b0nding and all that stuff.. but i stiL need to trust him.. or else.. this reLati0nship wiL g0 n0where.. well.. jake.. if ur reading this.. i h0pe u understand.. h0pe ur n0t mad at me.. i jUst d0nt wanna l0se y0u.. i d0nt want u being cl0se t0 an0ther girL.. hay.. -wat a seLfish th0ught- i really am s0rry.. i l0ve y0u jake.. and i d0 trust you.. plz be true to y0ur w0rds baby.. toodles..
shattered@4:59

[c0ntinuati0n]

ei.. weLL.. wHen i feeL jeLLy.. i never really liked it..
i regret it nMn m0st of the tiMe..
c0z i get mad t0 people.. like.. "nccra image nila sken"
i keep on thinkin bad stuffs b0ut theM.. s0metimes t0 my bf..
tHat's why i never reaLi liked it.. ks0.. this feeLing c0mes naturaLLy..
damn.. i hate it... GRR!!
i h0pe y0u'll understand me... i never wanted this feeling..
i'M only huMan.. i've g0t s0me imperfecti0ns.. and i have feeLings nMn..
im tru to my feeLings.. kxe.. the m0re i try to hide wat i fiL.. the m0re pain i feeL..
iF i try to teL hiM wat i fiL.. i usuaLLy feeL.. teLLing him wat i fiL is useless..
n0thing seems to happen.. s0metimes nga.. mas nadadagdagan yung skit dhiL sa mga
pinagsasabi nea skin.. kaya eun.. i'll give up.. and cLam UP!..
hAi.. soo harsh..
bUt n0w.. iM trying my best to c0ntr0l this feeLing.. I WILL try my best..
f0r every0ne's sake.. it takes tiMe to learn on h0w i can c0ntr0L this..
bUt i h0pe that tiMe wiL c0me na.. s0 that everything wiLL be okay na..
cHange t0pic!! ^_________^
oH.. i f0rg0t t0 menti0n oUr gr0up w0n in the c0oking c0mpetiti0n..
then jake's sister jaz.. their gr0up als0 w0n..
then jethr0's gr0up w0n t0o..
then last wednesday..
we battled again.. bUt jake j0ined jethr0's gr0up s0.. yeah.. haHa.. faMily daw kme naglulu2..
c0z i was there.. nd jake.. ng also jaz... haHa.. puro "J"
then yesterday.. they ann0unced the winner.. and it was jake's gr0up..
2nd place lun kme.. hekhek..
tHen..
sch0oL is oH so FUN.. me hAppie tlg pag ksma qu sila leyva..
especially rohan and juLian.. they're lyk my b0diguards..
they kiss my sh0es.. then they wiLL sit or stand infr0nt of me then they will say
sa mga tao na lalapit sken..
"bwal lumapit kei princess jizelle".. hekhek!
s0o FUN!!.. s0o sweet...
the lyf starts to suck agen..
i g0t the chance to talk to jake yesterday f0r ab0ut 2 h0urs na..
kso we we're quiet.. wanqu ba dun.. kaasar..
aqu lun lge nagsasalita.. kabanas..
taz.. xbi ng m0m nea kain na daw sia..
then i waited f0r his c0l..
i went online.. and.. he said.. aalis daw xla..
we we're hAppie pa nMn dhiL di xia aalis..
akala nMen we c0uld talk hanggang sundei..
di nMn pla.. tp0s. pinagbwalan sia magf0ne or magceL..
/x0b.. i'll just spend my weekend writing b0ut wanting hiM.. needing hiM..
hekhek.. -draMa-
weLL.. g0tta g0 n0w..
me g0nna call mah bhez..
t0odLes. = )

.enrai28.

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HAHA..
i t0taLi l0ve this s0ng..
Never Wanna Say Goodbye by jojo..
sHe was once a girL wh0 didnt kn0w wat l0ve is..
but n0w that her eyes are wide open..
and finaLi l0ve had c0me her way..
sHe realized that.. l0ve is such a w0nderfuL feeling..
and also like the titLe of the s0ng..
sHe d0esnt want t0 say g0odbye to l0ve..
just like me..
once an inn0cent gurL..
wh0 was carefree and all that..
but n0w...
now.. that my heart is open.. to l0ve...
and is n0w inL0ve..
weLL.. i w0uld never wanna say g0odbye..

well.. that's b0ut it..
t0odles..

Gosh!!!! OMG... it's good to be back people!!
i haven't updated my bl0g c0z our f0ne was br0ken since last wednesday..
so our f0ne was br0ken f0r ab0ut.. 1 week and 5 days..
w0w..
well..
there are a l0t of things that happend in the past few days or week..
a l0t of haPpie stuffs.. d0nt y0u find it weird? i get to hang out with guys alMost everyday..
they were a part of my everyday life.. it's lyk they're my new barkadas.. c0z i get much attention..
unlike.. the others.. they would even say bad things or backstab me.. harhar.. [ s0me of them
are my besfriends.. g0sh.. g0 t0 hell.. get a life..]
it's fun being ar0und with the guys.. they said that im they're "QUEEN" haha..
and leyva is teh king.. and our funny b0dyguards.. rohan and juLian...
hekhek.. i feel so special when iM with theM.. it's lyk n0thing's wr0ng.. like everything
is goin fine.. they heLp me f0rget all the painful things that people gives me..
alth0ugh.. on sec0nd th0ught.. s0metimes they w0uld think that im a bit FLIRTY..
HAHA.. oh reaLi?.. fLirty ei?.. hMm.. it's n0t even my fault.. they're the one who keeps on
f0llowing me ar0und.. not ME.. haHa.. l0sers..
hMm..
life is starting to be c0mplicated.. c0z they're a l0t of guys wh0.. keeps on
c0urting me.. even th0ugh i have a bf.. *sigh*
and an0ther one is..
it's..
hard.. when you feel jelly... i mean.. i just hate it when i feel jelly..
everything seeMs to go wr0ng..
i'll start to hate hiM.. and i'll start to hate myself as well..
then s0me pipol wiLL talk b0ut me AGAIN.. [ bad things b0ut me ]
y0u kn0w wat the painful part is?
it's where you get to realize.. that even ur b0yfren.. is like..
saying bad things b0ut you.. that wat iM d0in is wr0ng and stuff..
it hurts c0z of all the pipol that i w0uld expect wh0 w0uld understand me the m0st..
is als0.. unavailable.. he's out of reach..
it's like he d0esnt understand me at all..
but WHY??... didn't he even FEEL this?
or is he trying to pretend that.. he's INNOCENT?
s0metimes i w0nder..
wat if i w0uld try t0 break up with hiM..
w0uld i stiL live? can i make it? is it the right tiMe?
or.. h0w b0ut...w0uld i let this heart of mine BLEED all the way thr0ugh and stiL l0ve hiM
with all my heart???..
HAHA..
s0unds difficult..
there are a l0t of mysteries when it c0mes t0 this situati0n..
nd this mysteries.. starts to make things w0rse..
the reas0n why i hate him s0metimes..
is bc0z.. i d0nt get it.. it's like if i w0uld try to let this feeling out..
seems to me.. n0thing's happening even if i try to teL hiM wat i fil..
you kn0w why?.. c0z the same scenario w0uld be..
we w0uld argue b0ut it.. then i'll l0se..
it's n0t that i d0nt wanna accept my mistakes..
but.. wat the heck?..
I mean.. if you reali kn0w me.. and y0u kn0w the things that w0uld make me cry..
or i'll get hurt.. why even dare try to make me cry? or do the things that w0uld hurt me?..
that's if.. you reali kn0w me...
i als0 hate myself..
c0z iM being t0o seLfish..
i hate myself c0z it's lyk i limit hiM..
he cant d0 things freely.. and iM s0rry b0ut that..
bUt.. h0nestly.. this is wh0 i aM..
all i wanna do.. is.. sh0w and tell wat i feel..
iM just being tru to my feelings..
is dat such a bad thing??..
well a friend of myn said..
"sana.. dti plang nging mej0 seLosa na aqu.. dhil npaka halaga nea skn..
laM mu.. minsan ang pgiging seLosa.. aus lang.. bsta dpt laM mu lng kung
cnu pagseseLosan mu.. ksi.. ala nMn masama kung magseLos..
ang pagseseLos kxe.. minsan.. sign yun ng pag care.. indi sa walang trust..
per0.. minsan kxe natatq0t ka lang na mwala yung tao.. PROMISE gnun yun.."
bla bla.. and there it is.. a tagal0g line in my bl0g.. [ f0r the first tiMe ]
well.. she's ryt..
indi nMn tlg aqu ngsesel0s dhil ala trust e.. gnun lun tlg nu..
haHa.. di neu lun tlg kme maintindihan.. pero.. aus lun...
bhala na keu..
w8... i'll c0ntinue this l8er...
toodles.